Hey all! I just woke up and i've been thinking alot and i've realized that all this shit doesn't matter. Is it? Is it? Do u thnk so? Hmmmm lol. So alright you asshole, i quit. I surrender. Just take over. I'll do whatever you want from here on out. Im just goin through the motions now. I no longer have any will to take control of whats happening to me. I'll do my good for other people and that's it. I don't deserve anything, so don't give me anything anymore. It's fine with me that i'm gonna grow old all alone. That's perfectly ok and that's the way it's gonna be. We all going to die anyway so im not gonna be alone forever lol. I can't keep playing these games. It's not worth it. I've hurt myself too many times and i'm tired of running back to the same thing. I'm not worth the pleasures and such...so all i wanna do is get out alive. These stupid mind games are fuckin stupid and not worth it. So i'm done with it all. Finished.! Terminated! From now on it's me, just me and that's how i want it. No boys but friends are cool so don't get me wrong but i'm really finished with the whole finding someone to love crap. Bcoz it's not happening for me ever. I should have never let go of the whole idea that i'm me and only me until i'm 21. So that's the new rule. And i'm fuckin stickin with it! No more of this shit and yeah...i'll prolly end up meetin someone and yada yada yada...but i'm fuckin stickin to my shit (Your lucky if u can change my mind! Ha ha ha). But yeah this is what i need to do. So i'm doin it and nobody can stop me. So eat that you assholes grrrrrrrr! On top of that plan. I'm going to simplify. Go back to the needs in life. Like eating. studying, listening to music and watching tv in my freetime. No more of this messin around with my head crap. I need this. So i'm doin it. Anyway, i gotta go now! Oh well bring it on world, anything you got! I can totally kick your ass! Ok ok enough, love you guys!!! ~PEACE HEHEHE~

Oh my, do you know what it is like to reach for the cellphone ? And then you have to pull your hand back because you remember you are not supposed to call anymore and you sit back with tears building up in your eyes because you know it's not the last time you will miss the conversations you've shared? Yes that's true and it sucks! Realllllllyyyy and im trying so hard to control myself! Grrrrrrr help me! Stupid me! Ok ok i need time, i know i can make it on my own. Ok dokie i gotta go for now. Nighty nyt everyone. PEACE!


Nice Quote:
*When you lose someone you love, you never get over it, you just get used to it.*